Saint Natas - poetic terrorist
September 17, 2009
i just went on the most amazing run...i felt like rocky...i think i could hear eye of the tiger as i went up that last hill...i was thinking that maybe i should subscribe to this blog because i like it so much...now i'm sitting here smoking a cigarette, drinking bottled water, and listening to bob dylan...those first couple albums are really good shit...hate to admit it...and yes i'm as athletic and in shape as lord byron was...oh...i'm exhausted from everything at the moment...writing another book...i feel very emotional about this one i'm working on...gathering articles and doing interviews for the kult ov kaos is time consuming...add homework to that...part time job...being big poppa...now i just need to decide...for a little r and r...do i shower and watch a movie...or do i shower and head downtown...it's a 50/50 chance of either...the other day i went to the free clinic to get tested for stds...holy fook do they make a cat feel low...very good job at that...like i got no health insurance so i'm some kinda retarded leper...some kinda deviant...well...anyways i checked out and came up clean...ladies, i'm std-free...fraternally,saint natas
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August 25, 2009
haven't been sleeping much lately...that is not a bad thing...it's a joyful and productive thing...i just had a feeling of deja vu typing that...weird...this summer has opened a new chapter to my life...change is good...new job...back to school...everything feels near perfect at this moment...near perfect...not yet complete...i will be complete before i die... to feel like god walking over the surface of water...the human perception is the surface of that water...there is so much below and abo... Continue reading...
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August 22, 2009
i just did what other people were afraid to do...pushed the boundaries...exceeded the limits...oh cry me a river...when i went down, i went down...i saw a falling star...it was the limp body of an archangel dropping from heaven...burning in the atmosphere...some looked up at the right moment and saw it...some didn't notice...some made a wish...he lay like death in his crater for years...his eyes opened without a flutter...staring, unthinking, unfeeling at the endless night sky...infinite, tin... Continue reading...
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August 21, 2009
i'm on my second juice box, waiting to go back to work...oh dat fooken sux...split shifts just kill me fooken day...some times people are hurt so good, so deep, uh, hurt so much, so long, such righteous, almighty hurt...yeh some times people are hurt that much...so much it makes them touch the stars...to float up passed the heavens and into the void of space...they float and blow in the cosmic winds, looking around at it all with stars in their eyes...they become the dream...completely moved.... Continue reading...
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August 19, 2009
oh fucking hell...i was on my way home from work this afternoon and half a block from my home i turned the corner at a stop sign, going down a hill...two motorcycle cops were riding side by side...they had their lights on and yelled at me to stop...there was a long line of cars behind them...i thought, oh crap, it must be a funeral procession...i pulled into my alley and parking spot...the motorcycle cops came speeding in from both sides of the alley...i got out of the truck, "i'm sorry i did... Continue reading...
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August 17, 2009
heartache and three days of sleep deprivation...wired and restless...this is it, baby, this is it...right here, right now, where it hurts...this is how it feels to be alive...and yes, it's true, if you look in my eyes long enough you will see the devil...thy will be done becuz i'm just a man...thy will be done, guide my hand...make me an instrument of peace and justice...the saint looks down at his shadow...or am i the shadow looking up at me?...and i do...i feel so alive...bursting, overflow... Continue reading...
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July 10, 2009
my ever growing, morphing paradigm takes me places not of my choosing...i need simply sit back and enjoy the ride...
now my god is ahura mazda...but this god goes by many names...all other
gods are manifestations of this god...the universe, the multiverse,
creation...a manifestation of this god...saint natas, a manifestation
of this god...the kybalion calls it the ALL...did i spell kybalion
right?...can' t remember...
ain and ain soph, manifestations of ahura mazda...absolute no
thing...abs... Continue reading...
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July 3, 2009
i've been running a lot lately...pushing my body to it's limits...my mind as well...i can't consume enough information fast enough...i wish i didn't need to sleep...wish i could just upload data to my brain like a computer...i ain't really sweatin' nuthin...no worries...just carefree living...living in a one bedroom apartment with five people, some times seven or eight...ha ha...and it's good times...i know when this time has passed i'll look back and miss it...cherishing every moment...i hav... Continue reading...
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June 27, 2009
i've had this strange feeling take me over the passed month or more...it's hard to explain and i'm reluctant to mention it for fear it might go away...it's this feeling like my life is not my life anymore...if that makes any sense...that no matter what i plan to do, these things will not happen...that i have absolutely no control...that i just have to go the direction life is taking me...and i have no idea what direction this is...when i fight against it everything goes wrong...something deep... Continue reading...
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June 26, 2009
oi...one of those days yeh know...and after such a good day yesterday...yesterday was john the baptist day, my favorite holiday...and it really was such a good day...hung out on the beach with beautiful girls, went for a run, etc...now today sucks...my boss threatened to fire me and basically said i will be fired soon...sun burned...tired...broke...walked away from someone i really didn't mean to walk away from...it just happened out of habit...maybe said too much...i have to find a new job a... Continue reading...
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“i want to be a poet and i am working to make myself a seer, you will
not under stand this and i don't know how to explain it to you...it is
a question of reaching the unknown by the derangement of all the
senses...the sufferings are enormous, but one has to be strong, one has
to be born a poet, and i know, i am a poet...” -Arthur Rimbaud "I have a great mind to believe in Christianity for the mere pleasure of fancying I may be damned." - Lord Byron"The time to fight for freedom is the time when freedom is threatened,
not the time when freedom is destroyed, for that later time is too late. Freedom is threatened now, the destruction of freedom is not far off. Now is the time to
fight." -Jack Parsons
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