another god damned beautiful day...and it's not even over yet...so much to do...so little time before i die...i have a tendency to attempt things that seem unlikely or ridiculous...or so i've been told...i tend to do things that others tell me i can't do...examples being getting colleges degrees after dropping out of high school...i got almost straight F's through most of high school...the only three subjects i got good grades in were composition, art, and psychology...i didn't graduate because i partied high school away...every day was a blast...any ways, there were certain individuals who told me i couldn't become a go to college and become a counselor...so i fucking did it...

i've done everything in extremes...it's in my nature...i wouldn't have it any other way...when i started to study the occult, i thought, well i'll be in the minority and actually practice it...at the time following the books on ritual magick's word for word...i decided to take it a step further and become even more of a minority by actually being initiated into magickal fraternities...i was totally nervous during my first initiation...i'd never met any of the people prior to the ritual...it was quite a rush...after that, joining the other groups was a walk in the park...

so in the vein of impossible extremes i choose my next step to be knowledge and conversation with my holy guardian angel...after success with that, i took up the babalon isis working, which altered my life forever, in ways that can not be undone...

continuing in my own tradition of extremes, which i believe is my true will, which can not be stopped when in motion, swimming with the flow of the universe....my newest project is seeing how much one person can improve the human condition...i expect it to be a thankless and invisible task, but i'm 100 % down...and excited...

the first step i've taken in this project is writing letters to people in prison...i've picked 15 people doing life for murder...having these pen pals is completely rewarding...i'm able to connect with them on a very intimate level...i think i make them feel like they still matter...their lives still mean something...they make a difference...i hold nothing back in these letters...i tell them everything, and they tell me everything...we just offer each other moral support and friendship really...

another thing i'm doing is attempting to resurrect the defunct kult ov kaos...not the magazine, but the group...if you build it, they will come...so i learned watching field of dreams...

another part of this task is obviously writing books, my blog, and the magazine...

more things i've started to do, is to completely give myself to people...help people and do the right thing even when i don't want to...to live a life of principle...to live by a code of honor...i make sure i call at least one person a day to talk about life and make sure they're doing all right and see if i can do anything for them...it may sound all cheesy or something, but it's not...it's like letting the light of god shine through you like the sun shines through glass...it's not natural for me to be selfless and i have to force myself to do it, but i tell you, it makes me feels so fucking good after i do it...can't stop dancing and singing...lol...

there is more to my diabolical machinations...i'm working on cultural and political engineering...the revolution of everything...this is just the beginning and i have so much to fucking do before i die...

a song for you before i go...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdmeqfPvypA

love always,
saint natas