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sweet, sweet...

September 24, 2011

but there’s this girl in my dream,

she’s starlight and space flight,

she’s got the look of my favorite book,

she’s a sad clown and always around,

she won’t say no or let go,

she’s my hand held tight and my kiss good night,

she’s my “my, my, my”,

she dreams like i do

she fucks in strawberries fields forever,

i see the sunset and rise and die in her eyes,

we’re gonna go where people don’t go

we’re obsidian dreams, danse macabre

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review of mein kampf...

September 14, 2011
i decided to read mein kampf (my struggle) by adoplh hitler because it is a forbidden book...i advocate freedom...

the simple, plain black cover adds to the books foreboding mystery and dark reputation...

the beginning chapters cover his childhood...there seems to be nothing exceptionally outstanding of this account...the book is difficult to read, i think partly because German is difficult to translate into english and retain it's original meaning and partly because hitler seems to ramble on a...
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shotguns and beauty...

August 21, 2011
this morning was one of those mornings when i woke up feeling like putting a shotgun in my mouth...struggling sleeping all night all week...it's strange the twists and turns life brings...there is a sense of humor and irony to the universe...there is an unfathomable order to it all...if you pick yourself up and work hard doors of opportunity do open up...put your blood, sweat, and tears into your life and dreams and there is reward...things don't necessarily happen the way you want them to ha...
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can't give it up...

August 20, 2011
the downloading issues we were having with kok # 5 and # 6 has been corrected...bare with me, # 4 will be corrected soon as well...thank soror zsd for her hard work...

last day of work at one job...start a new one on monday...and my dream job in 3 weeks...

i've been like a bipolar in the manic stage these past few weeks...that's a good thing, dig...no crashing...

lucifer steadies my hand and heart...stills my worries...

actually get to sleep in tomorrow...a date with lucifer at noon thirty...then...
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i'm not like everybody else...

August 19, 2011
i'm not like everybody else...

has there ever been a better song?...

anyways...long day again...working hard...so much to do...so little time...last day at this job tomorrow...then three weeks at another...and back to the job i really want...

i've so drained from writing tonight i haven't left anything for the blog...

really...no suffering, forlorn lamenting tonight...ha...

patience and humility are growing...

i have to have these long stages of recuperation between workings...i'm only human...most...
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L...

August 18, 2011
i lied...i worked on the book...with consciousness tipped ever so slightly...ingredients, a little sleepy a little sad...

i'm in love with an imaginary girl...

a blue angel...

the angel of morning...

the angel of mourning...

i have a fetish for fucking angels...

it's really too late to turn back time...

for the love and silence...i sacrifice myself...

it's so easy to slip away...

i'm distracted...lovely lucifer always on my mind...

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to know you is hard...

August 18, 2011
i just ate a frozen pizza...had a very long day...non-stop business from 8 am until 9 pm...i was going to sit down here to work on my book, but i'm really feeling like i just need to relax now...enjoy this cigarette and pick out a netflix movie...i love watching old, lame horror movies...

it's very difficult being in a relationship with someone in prison, even more so since the prison denied me visitation...they say i can't visit her because i didn't pass the background check...i'm sorry dear ...
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that's how strong my love is, baby...

August 16, 2011
do that one more time...

i've nailed many red roses to the cross...i pray i'm swift and worthy enough to pound this last rose in place...like a halo over my bloody head...this final rose to lay in my coffin...this last rose to comfort me...to stay strong...

i'm sick of being let down by people...i'm not angry about it...i just know it is what it is...nothing can be counted on...anything you want in life you must work for yourself...the world isn't fair and never will be...and that's okay...just...
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i got my baby back...

August 13, 2011
i'm excited to go visit my girlfriend...just waiting for the warden to approve me...she's in prison for burglary...you may ask yourself, "what kinda bird is this?"...well, i'd say, "she's the kinda bird who'll burglarize your house"...i've been dating her off and on since high school...or since she was in high school anyways...5 yrs now...she's just great...super fly, extraordinary hazel eyed little spitfire that's not afraid to tell anyone to fuck off...i just dig it when she tells me she do...
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good morning

August 11, 2011
i woke up depressed today...not sure why...this whole idea of helping other people and making the world a better place seems so daunting...the circumstances of my current situation makes it seem impossible...i don't care if people laugh at me or think it naive or stupid or whatever...fuck you...i'm gonna do it any ways...i don't know what to do, but i'm going to do it...

i have to go to work in an hour...don't really feel like doing that either...have to remind myself that to accomplish anythi...
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“i want to be a poet and i am working to make myself a seer, you will not under stand this and i don't know how to explain it to you...it is a question of reaching the unknown by the derangement of all the senses...the sufferings are enormous, but one has to be strong, one has to be born a poet, and i know, i am a poet...” -Arthur Rimbaud

"I have a great mind to believe in Christianity for the mere pleasure of fancying I may be damned." - Lord Byron

"The time to fight for freedom is the time when freedom is threatened,
not the time when freedom is destroyed, for that later time is too late. Freedom is threatened now, the destruction of freedom is not far off. Now is the time to
fight." -Jack Parsons